Adventure is Out There!

Adventure is Out There!

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

A Happy Fortnight

On the introduction of someone new in my life.

So you know how I was doing so well? Writing once a week? Yeah, I fell off that that train. So this is me, running after the train.

I have a good reason though for my narrative absence. Yes, this is going to be one of those cliche posts in which I tell a charged tale of college romance. However, I know a lot of you have been wondering what has been going on in my personal life lately (That was very sarcastic by the way. Most of the time I don't even pay attention to my personal life since it's so boring.) Boring, no longer though.
Recently, I have shaken off the weeds of singledom and taken on the mantle of attachment. I've snatched myself a boyfriend. Rather, he snatched me.

For the sake of non-disclosure, I suppose I have to call him something different on this blog just as I have renamed my dearest Bad Wolf for privacy purposes. At this moment I have decided to re-christen him "Jim Dear." His name is neither Jim nor Dear, however it fits in multiple ways. And yes, I stole that name from The Lady and the Tramp, don't judge me.


Since I get this question a lot from people not living in the Provo area, I thought I would share the story of how we met. It's kind of ridiculously cute, so save the vomit works and just hunker down because I'm telling the story here.



We met in a ballroom dance class. Cue the "Awwws" or the "Oh here we go's."

Isn't that the whole reason anyone takes a dance class at BYU? Interactions with the opposite gender? Actually, for me I just wanted to dance. I didn't even really want to interact with my partner, hence the reason I study the International style in which you keep your faces turned away from each other ;-)Much to Jim Dear's dismay, he's all about the Social style. In any case, I've been doing ballroom for as many semesters as I have been at BYU, yet I never ran into Jim Dear before (strange because in ballroom we are like a huge family where we all know everyone else and if we don't know them we recognize them). This was probably due to my resistance to Social dance, now that I type this out.


During our class auditions I noticed a new face in the pool. He was pretty tall, which I always root for the tall guys so I can have a better partner selection in class (wow, can I be any more selfish? Yeah, probably.) Fast forward to after I made the cut and was in the class. It was a Friday, meaning the girls could wear a tee shirt and pants and guys didn't have to wear button ups. "Pick a partner, we're doing Foxtrot." My teacher said. We often rotate partners, but being one of the taller girls I had about 6 choices I would go to consistently. Jim Dear asked me to dance. He was wearing a Star Wars tee shirt. How could I refuse? I also happened to be wearing my new Guardians of the Galaxy Star Lord tee shirt. At the same time we complimented each other on our fashion choices. Instant friendship.

I guess you could say geeky tee shirts started it all. A few weeks later we went on one date, then two, then four, and low and behold we are official now. To be completely honest, I have no idea what I'm doing or how to be a good girlfriend.  This is a chance to try out a new aspect of myself.

Anyway, there you go. The not-so-sordid details of a blossoming relationship. I thank my lucky stars every day that I now have Jim Dear in my life. I finally have someone who will watch StarGate SG-1 with me. Though there are many, many more reasons I love him, that's a pretty big one.


Saturday, October 11, 2014

Of Blood Moons and Bargains

I have always had a strange fascination with outer space, the Final Frontier, the Great Unknown. Just ask my father, I have been all about space movies since childhood. For all that love and adoration for astronomy, I would never in a frillion years actually go to space. The only way to get me into space would be the coming Apocalypse and my husband and children are already on board some sort of interstellar transport. Even then I would probably find an excuse not to leave. Think about it: only a few inches worth of mylar between your fleshy body and the vast void of nothingness. No thank you, I'll stick to my telescope and the Internet.

On that subject, this week there was a full Blood Moon. This rare occurrence is a result of Earth's shadow coming between the Sun and Moon. I could use lots of boring jargon, but all I am going to say is that the shadow on the Moon turns it this rich burgundy color, making you feel like you don't know what planet you're really on. That somehow during the night the Earth up and moved to a different location in our galaxy. So that morning, near 4:30 am, I sat out on the grass in the crisping autumnal air (word points?) I tripped down memory lane as I thought about all the times as a kid that my dad would take my brothers and I outside to see Solar Eclipses, Lunar eclipses, maybe a meteor shower. For me, I love the feeling of being insignificant in the grand scheme of the universe. It reminds me that God is out there orchestrating everything.

As that red shadow crept up the Moon, it felt like a little wave from Heavenly Father, letting me know that I should keep my life in perspective.  Life has definitely taken a turn for the different, as of late. If 18 year old me was trying to do this she would probably be in tears every night, calling home to mother and father asking their help in a situation that probably doesn't concern them in the slightest. Not to say I don't still call my mother in a tizzy, but I've been learning to handle different kinds of stresses in different ways. For example: all growing up I hated being late. One day we happened to be running late for my ballet picture day. There I was in my giant "Mexico" dress (all the classes represented different countries that year), tears streaming down my face and trying not to get mascara all over my white dress. All because I was not in a specific place at a specific time. College has quickly cured me of that. Sometimes you are stuck at the printer waiting for 30 pages to print and class starts in 30 seconds. All I can say is "Oh well." A whole new meaning to "You live and you learn." It would appear that I have been learning, progressing, moving along. Halelujah!

As for the bargains, I've been having to make a lot of deals and compromises in order to accommodate the glorious mountain of homework that I smack into every morning.  "Ok, if I can get hammer out this script tonight then I can spend time with my room mates after that." or "If I can finish my laundry by this time I'll fold it while I watch The Conversation and make mental notes on the zeitgeist of the 70s as I am sorting my lingerie from my tee shirts. I can do this." Let's just say I look forward to the day when I can go to work, work stays at work, and I don't have homework constantly hanging over my head.

And in conclusion, Your Honor, I'd like to say that I am happy for new experiences, new people, new relationships. Zest for life, that's what I crave. While times might get tough, if I keep an eternal perspective I might find that silver lining a bit quicker and possibly even reach the pot of gold the Lord had intended for me. Keep your eyes on that horizon, mates.

Cheers!

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Football Games Are Conducive For...

On my ability to be productive during football games

Hello everyone! I can't believe it, 3 for 3 weeks. Someone write this down for posterity. Since this is a typed account, I'll account for posterity here. How has your week been? Good? Helpful? Inspiring? Perhaps life changing? Well, good.

Tonight I thought I would share my thoughts on College Football game and their relevance in my life.

Firstly, I really dislike football. With a fiery, burning, passion of a thousand suns. I don't understand the game, they are incredibly long, and here at BYU they are usually freezing cold (no joke, there was a blizzard one game and we still played.) The only reason I would go to one is either on a date (if I really, really like the guy) or if I got paid. Which leads to...

I work a lot of football games. I am a gaffer for the pre and post-game shows that are broadcast on BYUtv. Now, I LOVE my job. Sometimes my job involves going to football games and setting up a working set in the stadium. Those days are long, usually cold, but I can get paid to watch football. Which, in the grand scheme of things, would make a lot of people jealous and resentful of my callous attitude toward the athletic institution that is college ball. As much as I don't like football, I adore what I do at work. They balance each other out.

During the game I am given free reign of my time. I am free to watch the game, do homework, read a book, or even blog about my usual activities that take place within those four hours. This semester has hit me pretty hard in terms of homework load so my computer has become an extension of myself. I'm surprised it hasn't fused itself to my lap yet.

With the addition of my noise cancelling head phones (Thank you, M'ma!!), I can now block out most of the crowd and get down to business in an academic sense. In two hours I have knocked out a 4 page script for one class and completed 2 weeks worth of reading responses for another. Did you know you can be really productive when you're not distracted? Yeah, news to me too, kiddo.

Football games allow for a slight chance of socialization. When friends come to the games they'll often drop by the press tent I hole up in and say hi and check to see if I'm still conscious (self - inflicted narcolepsy, remember?). Tonight, I got to see my bestie and her date who came to inject a little sunshine into my chilled being. Also, seeing as I went to high school in Utah, there is usually a chance I'll run into someone from my past. That happened to tonight to my utter delight. I got to catch up with my high school bestie - who I haven't seen in two years - and hear him tell me all about where he's at now and talk about what I'm up to. Note to self: STOP DRAWING SO MUCH ATTENTION TO YOURSELF. YOU ARE BORING. All my stories kinda sorta suck, but I'm getting better at telling them. #screenwriting241

The lovely array of music that can be heard blaring from the jumbotron is actually fun. There's something about being surround by 50,000 screaming people and feeling the beat drop. Within such a group, if you want to tell which ones are Millenials (those born between 1990 and 2000) just play Sandstorm and watch for which ones start moshing when the beat comes back in after the slow part. The crowd pulsates in special groups. Fascinating study. Also, I am in love with "Problem" by Ariana Grande Ft. Iggy Azalea, and I am starting to get annoyed that "Fancy" is getting multiple plays (I've been here a long time, folks) and no love for "Problem." *Sigh*

In all, I know I bash football games a lot, but there is definitely a place for them in my life. They are a long haul for sure, but I eventually find my silver lining.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Good Vs. Bad Days


To say I've had a lot on my mind lately could possibly be the understatement of the century. Between homework, work work, and the gripping panic of My Future jumping out at me I've been feeling, shall we say thrashed? So here are a few things I have learned.

I have self-inflicted narcolepsy. Without fail, every day I fall asleep in at least one class. It doesn't help that my Critical Theory class is held from nine until eleven, in a theater with comfy seats, where it's usually warm, where my professor turns down the lights, and then proceeds to read from not a Power Point presentation but a scrolling Word document. My body doesn't stand a chance. My roomies laugh at me because I have developed a curse where I can now sleep anywhere I sit; the couch, the back seat of a car, in a church pew, essentially anywhere I can hold still. I'd like to blame genetics for it, but knowing my sleeping patterns of late shows me for what I am: a glutton for punishment.

Catharsis for me comes through crying and cookie dough conversations. One of the best ways for me figure things out comes after a great deal of tears and deep conversations shared over chocolate chip cookie dough. Emotional purging and drowning in cookie dough bliss is usually best followed up by a hot bubble bath, unfortunately I have yet to have time for even that. I'll get there, I'm sure.

There is more than one way to work out. I found that just doing laundry can be quite exhausting. Hence the reason for the bag of clean laundry sitting at the edge of my bed for the last 2 weeks. I've even added to it since then after doing another guilt infested load and not folding it. #the washing machines are all the way downstairs.

You can't have the good without the bad. You can't have the sweet without the sour. The absence of sadness is not happiness. After living Megan's Terrible, Horrible, No-Good, Very Bad Day, there were many thoughts of "Anyone else have a bone to pick with me? Because I'm ready to surrender and throw in that towel?" Then I went to sleep, woke up to a new day and found a fresh start. The depths I felt the day before ( which I know is nowhere near some of the tragedies and heartache that most people go through, I am very blessed! ) became the valley to the mountain of excitement and joy I felt the next day. And it wasn't even that I suddenly had all these magical, inciting incident worthy experiences that day. It was just that I had a greater appreciation for the little "tender mercies" as my dear Young Women's President used to say (I know she still does). All I needed was to have some heavenly light shed upon my path.

As I prepare to make some pretty big decisions about my future and what I want to do with it, I thank God every day for the friends and family He's given me. Even though I don't always feel worthy of affection, I can always find it with those angels God put near me. I got to enjoy a celebration of friendship yesterday when my dear room mates made this lovely masterpiece for my 21st Birthday Party.


Obviously, I'm the old fart in this apartment as the second youngest. What can you do? Love them, I suppose. Well, in any case, I just wanted to tell everyone that even if you feel low, perhaps like a plastic bag drifting through the wind (STOP! stop, stop, no more!) that better times are always ahead. I know it sounds like a cop out to say, "Oh, you just need to change your attitude." I wouldn't always say attitude, but perspective would do it. I hope you all enjoyed this. Hopefully, I'll be back next week, one year older and wiser too.

Friday, September 19, 2014

'Twas the Night Before Friday

In these last few weeks I have gone on a bit of a soul search. Here I am, senior at BYU, about to graduate in April, and yet who am I really? There are many answers, and most likely I'll keep you posted on how that "finding myself" is going every once in a while. Today, I'd like to share some observations.

Reasons Why I am Something of A 35 Year Old Trapped in a 21 Year Old's Body.

I have become an avid listener to 70s rock n' roll. This trend I can trace to my new found love of the recent "Guardians of the Galaxy" film which has a killer sound track, if you'd like to listen.

This is called "The Awesome Mix Vol. 1" from the film. This gets compounded with my American Cinema of the 1970s class that has introduced me to a great deal of culture from this relatively unknown era for me. At the moment I am particularly mad for David Bowie. I am that girl walking up to campus with my earphones in shouting, "IIIII-IIIIIII-IIIIII'M HOOKED ON A FEELIN'!" #noshame


My films of choice lately are starting to come from the 70s and 80s, probably due to the amount of viewings within my American Cinema class, but also with how they are resonating with me at this point in my life. The New Wave magic of the 70s movies like "Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid" and the classic child like wonderment of the 80s in "E.T." have me enamored. They just don't make 'em like they used to, eh kid? Also, Newman's beautiful eyes at Butch, and Harrison Ford's scruffy crooked smile are irresistable.

I am way too excited about new laundry detergent. No, seriously, I am finding all sorts of lovely scents that I am pumped to use on my own clothes.


I long for the nights I can go to bed before 10:00pm. Obviously, as the current time of writing this post is 12:31 am, tonight was not one of those nights. However, I would love to become a boring person who doesn't do her homework or socialize with people and just sleeps and eats all the time.
Is that a thing? Can we make that a thing? Seriously, it's definitely time for bed.


I have made a reckless decision to train for a 5K. For those who you who know me, you know that this is quite contrary to my usual belief that,.

I want to run in the Halloween 5K held here around the end of October. They let you dress up while you run in specially running versions of your costumes. Come on, constrained cosplaying sounds like a blast. #RunningCinderella
Sidenote: because of my training I have lost 11 pounds from when I got back from London. WINNING!


Last but not least, I now have a plant. It's mint, useful, practical, with a slightly whimsical side.I have decided to name it Percival, because that is a pretentious name for a pretentious plant. So far it has survived one week of living with me and I have not killed it. I believe I saved it from wilting on Wal-Mart's neglectful gardening department (which is essentially nonexistent).



What does all of this mean? That perhaps I have come through that trying time of stretching from teenagedom to adulthood? Nah, not yet. Personally, I am more in favor of the notion that I am finally learning how to become introspective. Look inside yourselves, everyone! Who knows? You may have more than a heart and a brain.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

On the Subject of Motherhood

In honor of Mother's Day today I decided to post essentially me gushing about why my mother is more important than air or microwavable mac 'n cheese. So I have come up with the following list.


Reasons I Adore/Need My Mother

1. Motivation comes in a five foot four package.
       My mother has the uncanny ability to motivate. She could look at a tree in the dead of winter it would be so pumped little green leaves would start popping out left and right. It makes me one of the happiest young ladies to claim her as the woman who gave birth to me. Growing up, she was always there when I was faced with any type of choice. “Do what you’ll like” she always told me.  “We’ll help you anyway we can.” She probably didn’t understand that through that clause I would rope her into dance lessons, basketball teams, soccer practices, synchronized swimming competitions, and so many hours of dealing with a little, frustrated Megan pouting on the couch. I never doubted my mother’s support because she vocalized it freely; it seemed that she constantly had a portion of her brain devoted to me and what I would need. I can’t even do something like that for school, perhaps it’s one of those talents that came after the first born child arrived. The sweetest thing of all is my mom’s incredible enthusiasm for anything and everything I attempt. When I first decided I wanted to go into Film it was a complete hairpin turn from my previous career aspirations in nursing. Then I come in with some hare brained idea to instead pursue a career in the Arts (with a capital A, mind you). Even though I thought I would be a disappointment to my mother, I had made up my mind and that is the point of no return for me. Do you know what? She was behind me 100%. She could tell that this was something I really, REALLY wanted to do. Though it didn’t stop her (and other family members) from dropping occasional hints about the benefits (career and financial-wise) of going into either engineering or the medical field. Still, she knows how to get excited and get others around her excited too. She may be small, but she packs one inspirational punch.

2. She knows exactly how stressed I am by the state of my hair
      Mother knows me VERY well. So well, in fact, she is a regular Sherlock Holmes when it comes to reading me. When I lived at home, she would know how stressed I was simply by the state of my hair. She would know if I was lying because apparently I do funny things with my mouth when I’m fibbing. She knew when something was extremely important to me just by watching me talk about it. To my mother, I am an open book. We have built such a strong relationship over the years, I thank my Heavenly Father every day for that. Many of my friends would talk badly about their mothers or would constantly fight or compete with their moms. But not me and my mom. Mostly because I knew that I would instantly lose any fight I started with my mother. Also, because I knew that she loved me. She loved me and that was all I needed to know that she’d be an ally in battle. Every day I know she thinks about me because I think about her just as much, probably more. Being able to call her up at any time and just chat about life is one of the greatest blessings of having a mother. I thank my lucky stars that she is counted among my friends. Every night, I pray that I will love and befriend my children just as my mother did for me. It seems crazy right now; the thought of bearing and raising children of my own makes me want to curl up in a blanket and rock back and forth. However, thanks to the divine appointment God has endowed women with, I feel more confident that when the time comes I will have a chance to put my maternal instincts into action. I know as a youngster I sure tested my mother’s maternal instincts. My parents both became stronger through trying to tame a terror like me. I will be apologizing for that for the rest of my life, I’m sure. In any case, I am so glad and even relieved that my mother knows who I am inside and out, backwards and forwards, just like a best friend should.
 
3. Mother really does know best
      My mom is one smart cookie. I don’t think I ever went through a phase when I didn’t know that my mother was smarter than me. Mothers everywhere don’t become great moms because they passed Motherhood 101 or they earned straight As in Patience 202. Experience is the heart of understanding. If that is true, then no wonder my mother is such a smarty pants. Every time I leave home to come back to college, I kick myself because I didn’t ask my mom more about her life. I learn so much from her already, even though I am the selfish, blond, 20 something who doesn’t’ know quite what she wants in life. I love that I come from a home that has two very intelligent, very sensible parents. It brings a little order to the nut house known as the Williams Zoo (sometimes I was tempted to answer the phone “Williams’ Zoo, which animal do you want to talk to?”). Luckily, my parents complement each other so perfectly; neither one is “greater” nor “smarter,” they are just parents. Mamma Williams will do everything in her power to help us kids even if she doesn’t know the first thing about whatever we are working on. My dear mother, bless her soul, went back through Pre-Calculus text books to re-learn the concepts in order to help my brother and I with homework in high school. She went through high school mathematics, not once (which is more than I ever wanted) but three times with each of use and probably a 4th time as my youngest sister goes into high school. I think people have been granted sainthood for less. Ok, that was out of line, but in all seriousness who wants to go through high school algebra and calculus four times by choice? When my mom doesn’t know something (which I don’t think is anything) she makes sure she learns it. It’s a good thing she has such a loving and enthusiastic heart. I would have given up so many times when my mom kept pushing through. There have been many times I look at my mom and think “Huh, well that was downright genius. Never would have thought of that.” Genius comes after many other identifiers I have for her, first and foremost among them being “Mom.”

4. She has magic powers only a mother possess
     Every time I lose something and I’ve looked for it for hours on end (okay, more like 20 minutes), I know the moment I ask my mom to go look for it she'll find it in a heartbeat. No matter what I’ve done in search of it. It’s magic I tell you. The moment I get my mother involved all she has to do is think about finding it and the object will appear. At one point I asked her when I would get my super powers. She replied, “Once you‘ve given birth to your first child. It’s an acquired skill.” As disappointed as I was, I have been very excited to become a mother; if for nothing else but the ability to hear things from any room in the house, or have eyes in the back of my head, or the ability to simply look at someone and make them cower before crossing me. My mother has been a force to be reckoned with since before I can remember. Having two teenage brothers at home, I see how my mom can convince them to clean up the kitchen with nothing more than intonation in a comment. Mamma rules the roost. Yet she is the most loving, tender, funny, and interesting woman I’ve ever been privileged to meet. If anyone deserves super powers on this earth, it would be mothers. Who else has the guts to cook, clean, care, nurture, drive, shop, and love so many people? I think of mothers being pre-made to handle pressures beyond their wildest dreams. Then, she comes out the other side more beautiful as a human being than she could have been before. I’ve seen first-hand how graceful under pressure my mother is. In my book, she could take down Wonder Woman any day. 

Well, Mom, I love you very, very much. Here's to 20 years of being  great mother! To finish off, I think this extremely sappy video for Mother's Day says it all. 

Sunday, April 20, 2014

On the Impact of Country Music in my life

So today I had one of those experiences where you get philosophical in the car. Seriously, my car is the second best source for self-actualization fulfilment moments. The first being the shower, but that's the same for almost any human being of the 21st century because its a time when you aren't distracted.

This weekend I had the great fortune of attending Salt Lake Comic Con, so I got to drive about an hour in my quirky little Pontiac. I've done a lot of solo driving in my college career, so I go through a lot of audio entertainment. I mean A LOT! In all my years of driving I have steered clear of the Country. All that time though, people around me had been sowing the seeds of interest. I mean, I love my room mates, but sometimes their blasting could drive me nuts.

Two encounters in particular affected me. The first involves Bad Wolf. The year was 2013 and we took a road trip together, and had some spare time.  Lying on the bedroom floor, trying to kill time before we headed to the theater for the night, I turned to Bad Wolf.

Me: I'm bored. Tell me a story.

Bad Wolf: Okay, well have I told you about my secret love of old country?

Me: Well... (I was desperate) no.

Bad Wolf: This is what I listen to when I am really, really happy.

She proceeded to grace my ears with "The Grand Tour" by George Jones and others of that nature. Being the stubborn imbecile I am, I didn't really give the song much thought other than it was mournful and slower. Yet, the lyrics kept nagging at me. The storyteller in me was on fire, but my stubborn brain kept saying, "Nope, nope, you don't like this. Don't you dare start obsessing." Surprisingly, I defeated my addictive personality and didn't listen to the songs on repeat. But the emotions kept with me like the color of my hair, inescapable.

Fast forward a few months to November. This is the second encounter. I had found a friend in my major; we'll call him WonderBoy because he always makes me wonder about nearly everything. Also, because he reminds me of some sort of superhero with multiple identities. We had discussed  (argued about) the merits of country music and even though I'd made my position clear, he had somehow gone all Inception on me and I was intrigued. On my 9 hour drive home for Thanksgiving, through the desert ,the only radio stations that could come through were country ones. So you'd think this is the part where I fell in love with country. NOPE. But I tolerated it for longer than five songs... which is five songs longer than before.

Since I spent a great deal of time with Bad Wolf and WonderBoy, they've rubbed off on me. Bad Wolf has me addicted to Dr. Who and WonderBoy (having spent 2 years in Italy) has me gesturing like some classic crime boss ("I'll make you an off you can't refuse" style). But as I was driving to Comic Con yesterday I really began to understand the appeal of country music. The song "Springsteen" by Eric Church came on as I was cruising along and I was overcome with this tsunami of deep emotion that probably could have buried me if I had let it. I didn't, I was driving.

I guess I say all this to say that I noticed just how shallow my emotions go. Emotions never seemed to be something I lacked, but I think I've just become so numb due to growing up and going to college and all that entails. I don't take time to really appreciate the depth life brings. So thanks to Bad Wolf and WonderBoy, I have now been listening to an hour and a half's worth of country music. I ain't even mad. 

Who am I?